Christmas Eve. Energies between 21nd and 24th have strong healing power.In this time it is good to contemplate the past, present and future. If you think you are stuck in the past go to meditation, relax and wait what comes to your mind. One day is dedicated to past – go to meditation and ask the higher power (universe, nature, God, whatever you like) to help you release all that is not good for you, everything that restrains you in present and say (importance in this part is that you do it from your heart) : dear Universe (god, nature, higher power) please give me so much love,strength, mercy as I can accept in order to transform all that comes to your mind to unconditional love. If you feel like you have to transform anger, you transform it to it opposite, hate to love, etc….

You don’t need a meditating position, the point is you  do it with pure intention and willingness. This way is possible to transform any kind of emotion.

I am not sure english editions of book by S.N. Lazarv are available, but the result of this kind transformation is powerful. Usually results don’t come from today to tomorrow, but if you start cleaning your emotions with strong intention, you will see the difference.

This meditation can be used for improving relationships with your beloved ones – not in the sense of changing them but the aim is that you accept them as they are. This way my relationship with father changed so much i couldn’t belive it. I’ll write more on this technique in one of next posts.



Happiness is a state of mind or feeling characterized by contentment, love, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy.

I will be happy : When I meet the love of my life. When I graduate. When I loose weight. When I get Iphone. When I get dream job. When I get that dress.  When I reach success at work. Oh, Really???


Why I Am Here??

Lately, quite on a regular basis  I catch myself contemplating on my life path. I don’t know, perhaps I might be depressed or something or i have pms or i am too bored. The big question is always the same in spite of my age.  Why am I here? I really don’t want to think that all of I might be capable is sitting in the office from 9 to 5 all my life. Besides this money driven world is  gradually killing me. I don’t think I am made for capitalism. I know, actually.

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say that I’m a dreamer
But I’m not the only one
I hope someday you’ll join us
And the world will live as one

I want to make a difference somehow. And I don’t mean some huge grandiose things, little things. In fact I know how could I become helpful, but the reality is that for now I don’t have courage to do it. When I think about what would fulfill my soul I imagine myself voluntering somewhere in the third world. In wildest dreams I would leave everything and everyone behind, pack the bags and leave. To Africa, South America, no matter where. Somewhere where I would be helpful.

Yet on the other hand, I admit, for now ( i think is only matter of time, since the same thoughts are persistent for several years) my mind is tight up by mentality of general western society. When I talked to my friend about this he asked me : Are you insane? And what will you do when you get older, You won’t have any backup in financial security…. He’s got the point.  And on this level as I am a bit cowardish I agree with him. Still, have never risked anything in my life, should I sit at home all life and one day regret it, asking my self “what if?”



Piano – Fitness For Fingers

Finally I managed to find a perfect piano teacher. Got my first lesson today. Well, first lesson after 13 years. I regret the day I stopped playing piano. Spent a nice almost ten years in music school, and then black out. Just like that. NO more piano. And years passed by, still I kept the instrument, but I didn’t find the courage to start all over again. I am really happy I did this. All  I now need is patience and practice.Viva Hanon and Czerny:)

Picture:by Fruitshake

Be Thankful

That you don’t already have everything you desire.
If you did, what would there be to look forward to?

When you don’t know something,
It gives you the opportunity to learn.

For the difficult times.
During those times you grow.

For your limitations,
because they give you opportunities for improvement.

For each new challenge,
because it will build your strength and character.

For your mistakes.
They will teach you valuable lessons.

When you’re tired and weary,
because it means you’ve made a difference.

It’s easy to be thankful for the good things.

A life of rich fulfillment  comes to those who are also thankful for the setbacks.
Gratitude can turn a negative into a positive.
Find a way to be thankful for your troubles,
and they can become your blessings.

It has been ages since I first read this beautiful poem. Nevertheless I still don’t know who is the author.

Positive Vibes Only

Hello, I am Freya. My alter ego online. This is going to be my personal space to relax, enjoy and surround myself with everything that is beautiful, loving, positive, divine and bright:)

Who is Freya?

Short version: female, mid thirties, in a relationship, smoker ( I am ashamed!),  job nine to five, no children, one beautifullllll cat and few good friends.

Longer version:

introspective chic, always digging for more, curious and would like to know so much, unfortunately I don’t manage to fulfil all the knowledge in this world,my weakness is that I don’t finish what I started – that’s why there are many tutorials and books unfinished.

Who would I be if I had a second chance? I would be a pianist.

Dislikes: narrow-minded people really aren’t my  cup of tea  BUT I do my best to accept everybody as is.

My goals:

  • Quit smoking
  • Run a marathon
  • Eat healthy
  • Learn photography
  • Learn Spanish
  • Travel more
  • Be happy.

ps: not necessary in this order:)

Main point of this blog is going to be on spiritual and self growth from my point of view.